I Believe in God

I believe in God. I have prayed since I was a little child.

When I was very young I would ask God to make him stop. I eventually decided God wouldn't make it stop because God wasn't making it happen. This kind of thing had to be Satan at his worst. Since God had no hand in making it happen then how could He have stopped it?

My prayers were often misguided. I didn't know what to ask for so I often asked for the wrong things. If I had known what to ask for or maybe if I had known how to make things better He could have helped me! How does a child find out what to ask for? For a long while I felt betrayed by God. I kept praying though.

I have heard it said that God will only give you what you can handle. Does that apply to Satan as well? I mean will God let Satan give us more than we can handle or is that where God steps in and makes things better. How would God determine when to step in?

Over time I discovered I was wrong. People do evil things because they choose to do evil things. God gave all of us agency. It isn't His fault when agency is abused. In the end though God can make anything happen.

Immersed

I quit writing for a time. Like the notebook I had to put it down for a while. As I wrote I became so immersed in the pain of the past I had to take a break...

I have started a few more posts but none of them are ready yet. I just wanted to post something to motivate myself to finish and move on to the next chapter of my life!