She always had bug eyes

In my drawings we were always depicted with tears and frowns. When I drew my mom she was recognizable in a very different way. Mom was always drawn with big bug eyes in my book. It wasn't that her eyes were big. They were normal looking and normal sized but Mom always covered them up. She didn't want people to see. So she would wear the over sized sunglasses to cover the bruises until they healed and the black eyes were gone as well. She wore the over sized glasses to cover the puffiness from all the tears she shed but never realized we saw.

We knew she wore them so nobody could see what he was doing. In a way she hid like us only from the world and not from him.

Mom still has a giant pair from the past. She claims it is because They were expensive ground glass lenses. I've wondered if she still wore them because they were the only ones she had. Or did she think people would notice if she wore the big ones part of the time and normal ones the rest of the time? Or was it that she was afraid someone would see the truth hidden in her eyes? The eyes, those famous windows to the soul. Was she hiding her soul?

Mom still wears her a big pair of sunglasses from the old days. She says she wears them now because of her cataracts. They keep out more of the sun. She claims she likes them but I wonder how much of that might be habit. Thinking about it makes me sad.